BALD EMOTIONS

Only Men AND Some Women I think....hehe

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Keeping My Content Warning.....

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Now, any and all of these would help de-stress from life......sigh.....

2012-01-25T18:55:00.000-05:00

Today I have been driving myself crazy lol. I am even doing it willingly which probably makes the whole thing even more crazy. I am working on my math class for this degree. I go alone and thing are moving good and then all of a sudden I have NO IDEA how to do the problems I am working on. I keep trudging but in the back of my mind I keep thinking WHAT am I going to do if I don't make it through this class AGAIN. I need to get a 73% to move on to the next class. This next class is my VERY LAST CLASS FOR THIS DEGREE. I took my mid-term today. I got 107 points out of 165 possible. Not all that great. I had an average grade of 88% before my mid-term. After, I dropped down to 82 % and then I checked my other grades for this week which by the way I got all 100% on and now my class average is at 83% so techincally I am still alright. It's just I started the new chapter (on 4 out of 6) and I started freakin out again. sigh.....this math class is going to be the end of me instead of the beginning. It is stressing me out BIG TIME.

Then today I get a call from the place where my employment is going to go through. I am getting a Sub-teacher certificate. They have to have my transcripts and then I can be put on the payroll and I can start working. I need to work like YESTERDAY.....sigh....well the thing is I went to the college I attend 2.5 weeks ago and requested that my transcript be sent. After this call I though WHAT is going on. SOoooooooo I call the college .....apparently they have been "holding" the mailing of my transcript request (which also included one that needs to be sent for my masters application to Michigan State for Social Work - that HAS to be in by Feb 1st after that I can not apply again till NEXT FEB 2013.......it was an issue about my school bill which is taken care of but because the financial aid has not been put in yet....(Feb 29th two weeks after I start the second math class IF I get through this first one) THEN it gets paid....I was like WHEN was I going to find out about this? I have a job waiting for me....possible masters acceptance waiting and they were HOLDING my transcripts without even telling me anything about it. Oh well, they are to be mailed out in the morning.....the ones for the job will be fine....I just have to have 130 credits (quarter system) to sub which I have 188 because I am almost done.....so the job will happen I am just wanting it to start because I need money to pay bills and other things.....BUT I am not sure now if the transcript will get to the Michigan State Grad office in time.....if my college hums around on this it will be over for this year. I don't know.......

I should just focus on the passing of this first math class.......it's good to know that no matter what happens I will have this job starting soon. One day in the office two other days working from home on the comptuer....cool I think. So for now I just need to focus and hang on and do the best I can.....

I forsee watching some more "Will & Grace" to relax later on tonite.

Pizza Day

2012-01-25T17:20:00.000-05:00

Bras & Life

2012-01-25T00:45:00.001-05:00

Having worked on my math and then watching some of "thee speech" tonite on tv I decided that I just wanted to cut myself off from the world for a while and just watch some episodes of "Will & Grace" which always brings about some funny moments like the one where Grace wears a water bra. Always funny!

Sometimes . . . .(NSFW)

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you need a helping hand :-)

Sunday Update....

2012-01-22T18:06:00.001-05:00

Well I have been working on thee math class once again. Now though I do believe I am done for the day. I can only take so much of this studying in math. Right now I figured I have an 80% in the class. I need to have a 73% or higher so as of today - right now - at this moment and for the rest of the day until I decide to do more assignments....well actually I can not turn in anymore till Thursday now but until then I am doing alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrright.

This picture up above just makes me want to have a cup of coffee and sit outside and relax. Though here today it does not look like this. It is (or was I've been in the basement for hours studying now) sunny and bright outside. Tomorrow I am going to go for some tutoring but I am also going to get some time to myself. I think a little "me time" is in order. Yes, I do. Not sure what I will do...maybe walk around in the mall. Maybe go dit in the park - except that is easier to do when it's nice weather outside. Maybe I will just go for a nice little drive. Who knows....but it will just be some time to myself and when I won't be studying.

Hope everyone is having a Great Sunday.

Keeping My Conten Warning.......

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Facebook

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Possessed

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How True ;-)

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Canoe Trip (NSFW)

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Saturday Thoughts......

2012-01-21T13:23:00.000-05:00

This picture was a couple of weeks ago. I don't think I put it on here yet. Paul on left - me on the right.
Just thought I'd share the picture.

Saturday Thoughts:

**Started the day out shoveling not really going anywhere just wanted to get it done.

**My sister that lives here is back home now. She was gone for a week to get away and rest.

**Had pizza for lunch.

**Missing Paul - he worked this week quite a bit he has been sleeping and resting.

**Next weekend I am going to stay with him.

**Been working on my math.....again. Going to start reviewing today. Have to take the mid-term by Wednesday due by Midnight.

**Not much else going on today.

**I think a nap might be in order after working on math for a bit :-)

Numbers of Posts....

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I've now officially reached just over 1200 posts.....

Try Try Again.....

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Thoughts: Sex 98% Other 2% (NSFW)

2012-01-18T00:18:00.001-05:00

Probably the fact that 2% of my thoughts is dedicated to things such as my studies, bills, appointments, laundry etc etc I think you get the picture I should count myself lucky. I do not know what it is but ever since I "came out" my thoughts about SEX have jumped up 1000%. I think I have posted about this before but it just seems like I think about sex all the freakin time. Hairy men, faces, armpits, asses, hariy ....you name it. I love the feel of a scratchy face on my face ...and other places. Seeing Paul lean over to pick something up when he is naked....OH.MY.GOSH. no matter how I am feeling I want it. I think about fucking, being fucked, sucking (I love to suck....like spend hours doing it), rimming, my mind goes nuts...don't get me started on nuts.....sigh....chewing (lightly), smelling, licking....the list goes on and on. And wow there are SO many pictures and place on the net to go to where one can view men...in all sizes and doing all kinds of activities. I think the older I am getting the hornier I am. Great, I am going to turn into one of those dirty old men that people always talked about when I was growing up. Maybe I am just making up for lost time....maybe it's the Welbutrin I hear that has sexual effects...good ones lol....maybe I was horny all along and just did not KNOW it and now that I am out I want to express it. Paul is always laughing at me and calling me a slut because on the phone I make sexual statements to him once in a while.....ok lol maybe more than once in a while but it just comes OUT of me.....I keep thinking of when I was growing up I always heard in church that God gives men over to their thoughts.....when they are bad.....at one point when I first came out I thought oh no thats what is happening God is punishing me.......I know I know....it's hard to get those ingrained thoughts ...that brainwashing out from all those years of Bible training when now I know what it was.......teaching with FEAR....one has to be PERFECT to make it into heaven....no one is perfect I am sorry. I might be NEAR perfect but not totally. ha! I believe in God and I feel God made me this way so He/She is not offended with my sexual side of life as long as I am responsible with how I do things. Figures I would start a post about thinking about sex and end up talking about God lol. There are just some times that SEX is so much on my mind that I just have to sit down and make myself think of something else. Maybe if I could channel some of this to MATH I would get all 100%'s on quizzes lol. I am not complaining, I am not apologizing about my thoughts. I am just suprised sometimes at myself. Maybe it's just great to be able to enjoy my thoughts and not fell guilty about them any longer.....I am gay and thinking about men is alright....seeing Paul or hearing him or thinking about him and I get horny....thats ok......closing my eyes and thinking of times when I have had sex with a man....thats.ok.

This is probably just a silly post I don't know but it's what I felt I needed to write. Sometimes you just have to express your thoughts.

Going Cammando First Time :-)

2012-01-17T11:35:00.000-05:00

Well for most I am sure they have done this. I actually have "gone cammando" in the house but never while out and about lol. Soooooo today I am about to go run some errands and for some reason I just felt like why the hell not go "cammando" as they say......so I'll give a report later on tonite on how it was lol.....

2012-01-16T15:22:00.000-05:00

Wow, I am exausted and this time it's not from doing math....which yesterday was NOT good but I will get abck to that. Today I have spent the better part of the day doing things to apply for grad school to work on a MSW - Masters in Social Work degree. Everything is online which I know is suppose to be better but geez it can be difficult too. Finally I got things done I do believe. Well, I still have to pay the fee ($50) which I don't get back either way. I send out reference request. Explained myself in a ton of questions for them to see how I write and think I am sure of it lol. Hopefully this will pay off. I also contacted a different grad program but I sent a letter with some questions to their admissions cordinator becasue it is a "christian" univeristy and I want to make sure before I go any further in their application process that me being gay is not going to be a problem. We'll see.

MATH: Yesterday I took week 2's quiz. I "thought" I was ready. I put in some major study time the past two days. I took notes....I wrote down every possible version of problems that could come up. You know what came up on the quiz? HARDLY NOTHIN I SPENT TIME STUDYING ON!!! The problems in the book I could of handled the problems in the quiz I had never even seen those type....go figure...so I ended up getting 14 out of 30 right....ouch. I still have a "B" 84% in the class. I have to stay at the 73% or higher point in order to go on to my last class. sigh.

Paul is going to work tonite. He is driving cars to test them. He goes in at 4:30pm and drives till 12:30am marking down items about the car. I don't really care for this job because I am already worrying about him out there driving. Apparently they drive in groups of three with one of them being the lead car. It's a job which will help him pay bills but I am going to be so worried about him. He is going to call me on his dinner break and then after he gets off work.

I Should Start Playing Pool ;-)

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Dinner tonight

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Hmmmm

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Keeping My Content Warning

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Hungry for cock . . .

Keeping My Content Warning

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Keeping My Content Warning

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Sharing a meal . . .

Sock Sex

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Random Thoughts

2012-01-14T23:10:00.001-05:00

**This is not my house but the area around here now does finally look like Winter.

**Right now it is 8 degree outside....and close to that down here in the basement.

**I should be in my heated waterbed right now instead of sitting here at the computer.

**I miss Paul. sigh.

**I am horny.

**I hate math!!!

**I WILL PASS MATH!!!

**This time last week I was sitting in a gay bar watching a drag show.

**This week in the house it's just myself and Mom.

**I want to suck on Paul's dick......I told him that on the phone tonite lol.

**Paul said he would like that too! hehe

**I think I will have some bacon in the morning.

**I should start writing more her eon my blog I like coming here.

**I am tired.

**The best thing right now would be to snuggle up against my honey. We both sleep naked and I can always feel his warmth on me.

**It's shitty living 60 miles apart.

**Time to go to bed before this post becomes VERY dirty minded lol.

**Good Night

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Life of Math.....

2012-01-14T00:58:00.002-05:00

Well I have finished my first week of my "Introductory Algebra" class. This is the class that I took back in November but ended up getting a "C-" in the class. I have to have at least a "C" to go on to the next class "Intermediate Algebra" which is my VERY LAST CLASS. As of right now things are moving along good. I have an "A-" average for the first week. This class is only six weeks long so every week is extremely valuable. So far ....so good. Tomorrow I am spending most of Saturday working on math concepts.......I know...makes for an exciting Satuday huh? lol

This is how I feel tonite . . .

2012-01-11T23:55:00.001-05:00

lonely. . . . I am tired of living apart from Paul. I want to be with him. I want to feel him up against me at night and feel his warmth. I want to be able to reach over and touch him.

Is it me? . . .

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but is his rubber Ducky glowing?

Rupal Dragulator Pic

2012-01-10T18:04:00.001-05:00

In honor of season four starting on the 30th of Rupal's Drag Race I thought I would try the Dragulator.

Drag Picture number two

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Finally . . .

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A decent throne lol

Starting Out on 2012

2012-01-03T11:26:00.001-05:00

Had a great New Year's Eve weekend. Got to spend time with Paul and new friends. We all went to a gay bar I had never been to before. There was a good mixture of different kinds of people. They had great music, a buffet, and a drag show. Nice way to bring in the new year.

Got back home yesterday so today I'm getting caught up with my mail and laundry. I start my math class this Thursday. Taking the same class I took last time. I got a C- I need a C or better to move on to my very last class. I am very determined to pass it and get this degree done.

Also looking into applying for a master's program. If I am going to do this I have to do it because most of the places want it all done by the first of February. I have much thinking to do today. I'm at the point where I have to pay the fee to apply before I can go further in the process. Since money is tight I can't afford to waste any and all the fees are non refundable so I really need to know what I want to do.

Also I have been offered a job. Dealing with all that implies as well. The pay is great. If I take it though I lose my health insurance. The job deals with doing some teaching online and helping youth to finish their high school degree. It's a program approved by the congress and the governor here in Michigan. I've applied but still need to do a finger printing and take some courses online that take an hour to complete. The guy who runs the program has offered it to me. Right now it would be working 24 hours a week. The money sure would be extremely helpful right now. Plus the experience would be great to have on a resume.

Wednesday, I go to the doctor. Not looking forward to that one. I was suppose to lose some weight but didn't.

Ok well that's what is going on today. My load of clothes is ready for the dryer so off I run . . .

CHRISTMAS 2011......

2011-12-28T23:59:00.002-05:00

Don't have any pictures yet but Christmas this year was really nice. Christmas Eve I was at my family's dinner at a sister's house. Then when we got back my mother and my sister that lives here we exchanged gifts. Then around 9pm Paul came and picked me up. We went to a Midnight Christmas Eve Mass. I had been to another "special" Mass before but this one was just beyond awesome. I find it so interesting to watch what is going on it's so different than what I was raised like. After that we went back to the house had snuggled in for the night. Christmas day we exchanged gifts which Paul seemed to really like his gifts from me and I was very happy with mine as well. I cross stitched a "bear" picture for him this year. He said he likes it better than any of the other ones I have done in the past. That things took TONS of hours to get done. I will post a picture of it soon. I now have an "Angry Birds" t-shirt lol which is great. That game drives me nuts. The rest of the day was spent visiting with friends as they came over to the house for munchies and movies and whatnot.

I enjoyed Christmas this year. It seems funny that we do not have much snow but hey I am all for it as long as that will last !lol

To You . . .

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Merry Christmas

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Merry Christmas

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Merry Christmas

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Merry Christmas

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So Thankful . . .

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My honey has no blood clot. It got a little scary today when he called me to tell me he was going to the emergency room because his doctor thought he might have a blood clot in his leg. Thankfully he does not have one. He needs to drink water, rest, and have his foot elevated. This was an unexpected Christmas gift.

People Get Cold too.

2011-12-20T21:25:00.000-05:00

Amazing and heartbreaking . . .more like stabbed in the back . . . .how people can smile to your face when YOU know what they have done but THEY don't know you know.

14 Years Ago Today . . .

2011-12-20T19:02:00.001-05:00

I got married for the second time. We of course are not married now it it would of been our 14th anniversary instead it's the 14th UNanniversary :-)
We are still very close friends which makes me glad.

Fall Term Over......

2011-12-14T00:10:00.000-05:00

Today I finished my last final for this Fall Term of 2011. I was taking a "Power Point" class. Which was not really hard in itself but at one point I got locked out of taking the last two tests and had to call the school, call the instructor and finally after waiting five days to get in and take the tests I was able to do it today. Everything was required to be finished my midnight this Wednesday. So......I am now done with my Fall Term. Now I only have two math classes to take and this degree is finished. I am going to enjoy a few days of resting and then start working on my math again.

Not My Place.....

2011-12-14T00:06:00.000-05:00

Ok, I like Christmas and all but this would just be way too much for me. It would drive me crazy to try to watch tv with all that stuff around. I like a nice uncluttered place to sit down and watch tv myself. This is someone who really really (did I say really?) likes to go over board INSIDE their home. I found this on another site I visit. Their entire place is like these two pictures every.single.room.

Rudolph is in trouble lol

2011-12-12T00:15:00.001-05:00

Keeping My Content Warning

2011-12-09T12:09:00.001-05:00

Ahh Christmas Ball/Bells hehe

Rick Perry thinks THIS is strong?

2011-12-07T22:58:00.001-05:00

Wow, so it is quite apparent that Rick Perry is planning on riding this theme all the way to becoming president.......in his mind.

Had to post this....

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Hello Santa! Grrrrr

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Some Days are just........

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ahhh it's not worth me getting into.....I'm too tired.

Sunday Morning Musings

2011-12-04T10:06:00.001-05:00

Just enjoying the time I have right now while I have the house to myself. It's nice and quiet and relaxing. I'm doing some laundry and taking care of little things that need to be done. Even though it's raining outside it still feel like a nice day. Besides I like the rain as well.

Keeping My Content Warning

2011-12-03T21:33:00.001-05:00

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Got the Christmas tree up today. No, this picture is not the tree I'm talking about lol. It is always a little stressful when putting up the tree. Two Queens in one home is never a good idea with this sort of things and I am not talking about gay men....I am talking about a mother/sister Queen combo with each one having their own way of doing things. But, alas it did get done. I actually have some presents I could put under there but they are not wrapped yet. Today it was dreary outside. I would of prefered to have seen it sunny and snowing while doing the tree up. Oh well.

My "Power Point" class is going along very well. I am in week two of this three week class.

Paul has a big interview come this Monday. It really needs to pan out. Finding a job in this time is not an easy thing to do. So any good vibes would be cool on Monday :-)

I have something on my mind and I can't really write about it here. It's something that I never thought I would actually consider. It's something that I thought had already been discussed and over with. It brings me some doubt. It brings me some very exciting feelings. Some confusion. Some determination to do it. Sigh.......enough said for now.

Alright now that - that last pargraph was clear lol. I think I will venture off the computer for a while.

My World of AIDS

2011-12-01T07:58:00.001-05:00

I have only had one person that I have known very close who has passed with AIDS. He was a friend in high school that was in choir with me. I was already living out of state at the time and was not able to attend his funeral. A couple of years ago I went to a memorial service of a gay man that Paul knew who died with AIDS. He was from a huge family. Not one of them came to the service. It was so sad. Even the morning of the service we went to the church that we thought the service was going to be at and was told that the location had been changed. Because he was gay and had died with AIDS that church refused to have his funeral there. So we found out where to go. Besides these two incidents I have met a few guys who are HIV + but honestly they seem very robust and extremely healthy to me. Thats, been my world of AIDS. I realize that many men who have been out for most of their lives have lost many dear friends, partners, brothers, father and even sons to this. Paul had a brother who passed a few years before I met him. I hate how people judged those with this desease. God forbid if I ever were to get this my family would disown me for sure. (not all but a good part) So many are so quick to judge that this is "God's punishment for their chosen lifestyle." Well then God must punish those of us who eat to much, or don't walk enough, or who smoke....etc etc that would make God a very evil being and I just do not believe that. I think one day AIDS will no longer be around. Who knows when that will happen. Until then we all need to strengthen and encourage those who live their lives with this on a daily basis.

Monday Thoughts on Tuesday Morning

2011-11-29T00:09:00.001-05:00

Well apparently it's just past midnight so my thoughts at the end of this Monday are actually early Tuesday morning.

Not really much to report about except that I did my class assignment for the day.

You know I'm really not in the mood to talk or post. I have a headache and I'm cold so I'm going to bed.

Just ignore me and enjoy the picture.

Slow Motion Today

2011-11-27T11:52:00.001-05:00

Wow, I think I am still very tired from my last few days. This morning I got up and sent them off to church. Then I fixed some breakfast of eggs and bacon. Just been catching up on some posting and emails. Now I am about to start working in on online class I am taking. It is only two credits but two I have to have to graduate. "Power Point" had to download all the stuff to be able to do it so I am hoping now that all goes fine. Need to post two comments today and get some assignments done that are all due come Wednesday. After I work on this some I think I am going to curl up with a nice movie and relax more.

Very Packed Holiday Week/End

2011-11-26T23:11:00.001-05:00

I don't think I could of packed more into this holiday week and weekend if I tried:

1. Went to be with Paul for Thanksgiving.
2. Had Thanksgiving with Paul and friends.
3. Had some serious talks about the future.
4. Came back to Flint Thanksgiving evening to be with relatives from TN.
5. Got up on Friday to have Chocolate Gravy with hot buttery biscuits & bacon.
6. Went to BRONNER'S in Frankenmuth.
7. Went to the CHEESE HAUS in Frankenmuth.
8. Went out to eat in Flint with sister and family from TN, Mom, & Sister Kay.
9. Watched movies and played on computers while visiting.
10. Saturday (today) had Mom's 85th Birthday Celebration.
11. Picked up corsage
12. Picked up cake
13. Picked up person needing ride to celebration
14. Picked up certificate for a present from step brother for Mom.
15. Packed decoratioins in car.
16. Emailed teacher of my computer class "Power Point" several times because she had put the wrong course code info on blackboard so I could not get into my class and get to work.
17. Got to Country Buffet (Place where Mom wanted her celebration) to decorate early.
18. Sister Kay had low sugar attack had to watch her and decorated quickly.
19. Visted with people at par-tah
20. Called Paulie several times to talk with him...miss him.
21. Took pictures
22. Found out pictures got erased ....somehow.
23. Had a group picture taken.
24. Found out from one sister that the other sister was angry but discussed this through sister Kay instead of with me about not showing up to Thanksgiving at her house. (Um, the invite has to include an "US" as in Paul and myself...or I will not show up...been saying this.....sigh)
25. Passed out birthday cake.
26. Un-decorate.
27. Get back to house.
28. Say good bye to sister and her family as they take off to TN - they work on monday.
29. Eat too much cake.
30. Do some homework in my power point computer class. (Finally got the code)
31. Watch Welk show.....while watching Mom and sister Kay sleeping while watching Welk show.
32. Down stairs and redesigned my blogger to look more like the Christmas season.

tired....going to bed....Good day. Mom had a great Celebration so it was worth it.

Life can be . . .

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Moody?

2011-11-21T09:43:00.001-05:00

Everyone, and by everyone I mean my sister and mother who I live with are moody today. Apparent a "little" upset with me that I'm leaving tomorrow and coming back Thanksgiving evening. You know what? GET OVER IT! Now let's be THANKful this week.

Sunday do list.

2011-11-20T13:34:00.001-05:00

Just getting ready fir this upcoming week. I'm leaving sometime Tuesday to be with Paul then coming back Thanksgiving evening. The next day my sister from TN and her family and us here are going to Frankenmuth. Then Saturday is the 85th Birthday Celebration for Mom. So, I'm just trying to get things done around her before I leave so that when I get back life we be easier.

I think a turkey full of Prozac might not be a bad idea! lol

Rubber Ducky . . .

2011-11-19T03:44:00.001-05:00

Your the oneeeee . . . .

Queer Meme

2011-11-18T17:16:00.001-05:00

Yes, I took it from someone else lol.

1. How old were you when you knew you were gay?
I knew I was different but didn't know why. When I realized why (teens) I buried it so deep to not have to deal with it. There is no room for being gay if you are Pentecostal.

2. Have you ever had sex with the opposite sex?
Yes, I was married . . .twice.

3. Who was the first person you came out to?
My second ex wife.

4. Are you out to your family?
Yes.

5. Do you want children?
Not any more.

6. Do you have more gay friends or straight friends?
Hmmmm probably more gay friends now.

7. Were you out in school?
I'm in college for the second time and yes I'm out.

8. Is your best friend the same sex as you?
Two best friends: one male one female

9. If your best friend is the same sex, have you ever had sex with them?
Yes, the male is Paul.

10. Have you ever done crystal meth?
Nope.

11. Have you ever been in a sling?
Nope.

12. Have you ever done a 3-way?
Nope.

13. Have you ever dressed in drag?
No I haven't but want to maybe for Halloween one time.

14. Would you date a drag queen?
Date maybe

15. Are you 'fixed in your ways' as it were?
I'm adaptable most of the time.

16. Cher or Bette?
I have more Cher but love Bette too.

17. Have you dated someone of a different ethnicity?
No

18. Been to Fire Island? Saugatuck? Key West? Ft. Lauderdale? Palm Springs?
No to all.

19. How many Madonna CDs do you own?
Two

20. Name of your first love?
Elva

21. Do you still talk to them?
nope

22. Does size matter?
Passion matters.

23. Biggest turn on?
Kindness and blue eyes lol

24. Biggest turn off?
Arrogance

25. Ever been harassed due to your orientation?
Yes, had letters mailed out to everyone in church saying the fag should not come here. The letters were mailed out on four or five different occasions and got progressively worse.

26. Worst gay stereotype that applies to you?
People say they can tell I'm gay but I have no clue why lol.

27. Ever been to a pride rally?
Yes

28. Would you marry if you could?
Yes.

29. Would you rather be rich and smart or young and beautiful?
Rich and smart.

30. Do you sculpt your eyebrows?
No.

31. Do you trim your body hair?
No

32. Ever had sex with more than one person in a day?
No

33. Ever been to an orgy?
No

34. Which character in "The Women" best reflects you?
Have no idea.

35. Favorite gay expression ?

Oh. My. Gosh!

36. How may 'ex' do you have?
Two.

37. Do you believe in fairies?
Yes I see them all the time especially when I read blogs :-)

38. Do you have any tattoos?
No, not yet.

39. Do you have any piercings?
Yes, right ear at the top a little circle.

40. Would you date a smoker?
No

41. If you are male, do you know many lesbians?
Met a few don't actually know much about them.

42. Do you know anyone who has died from HIV?
Yes.

43. Are you part of a gay organization?
Currently a member of the "Motor City Bears" but have not been to very many activities.

44. Is your gym cruisy?
Don't go to a gym. Should though.

45. Grinder or Scruff?
Don't like either one.

46. Are your best years behind or in front of you?
They have to be in front of me or I am screwed lol.

47. Got Porn?
Yes

48. Make out music?
Slow and jazzy with candle lights

49. Ever been in love with a straight guy?
Nope

50. Did you ever have sex with him?
No.

51. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
No, I don't want to be taken for a beached whale lol

52. Have you ever been to a bath house?
Drove by one does that count?

53. Ever had sex in public?
Yes. I bet you are surprised about that one huh?!

54. What gay gene did you miss out?
Knowing every word to every gay themed song lol

Um, I'm thirsty for milk now ;-)

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Keeping My Content Warning

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Untitled

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Untitled

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"Being Human" UK Version

2011-11-12T12:51:00.001-05:00

Started watching this show the other day on Netflix called "Being Human" about a vampire, werewolf, and a ghost who share a house together. Pretty good actually. There are 22 episodes. My next one is episode eight. I know there's an American version but haven't seen that one.

1.89 pts Academic Hell

2011-11-11T12:02:00.001-05:00

That's how many points I was short of getting a "C" in my Introductory Algebra class. I got a "C-" which means I have to take it over again. Which also meant I was DROPPED from my Intermediate Algebra class even though at the time I had received almost all the points for the first week of that class. Now, as if that was not enough the teacher reported me for not "citing" one of my discussion questions. Because of this I was sent a letter from the dean of the online campus saying should their be another infraction I would be dismissed from the college. It was not my math that gave me the C- it was the score on the DISCUSSION questions. The teacher gave me a zero out of the possible 32 and in the end causing me not to get the higher grade. I, went directly to the school to discuss this. I had to get the dean to "ok" for me to retake the math class. The letter I was told was a standard letter. They sent out over 5000 of them. (they have over 54,000 online students) I am actually still in good standing. She advised for me to just cite everything I put in the discussion board. Because of all this my schedule got screwed up. I'm now taking a computer class (starting of all days on freaking Thanksgiving) for three weeks which was intended to be taken in January as my very last class. NOW, I'm taking the two math classes in January. This is the last time financial aid will pay for me to take this class. . . .should I not get the required C or higher I will then have to go somewhere else and transfer the grade in. I guess it doesn't matter if one has been on the "Dean's List" several times, has taken classes from some of the toughest teachers on campus that they have to offer only to NEVER have been docked any points for citing. Intact I could produce every single research paper I have ever done since starting if which mist are near the 100% grade, one is only as good as their last term. I will be so glad to graduate and get away from this college come the end of march oh . . . .that is if some online teacher doesn't do this again.

This hole? I have felt like I'm at the bottom of it and that golf ball is this term about to drop on me. Ugh.

P. S. - Got a B+ in my Ethics class.

Morning Coffee

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NSFW

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Blue......

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December - Fat Boi

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Keeping My Content Warning

2011-11-03T23:52:00.001-04:00

Thoughts Crammed in my Wee Mind Right now...

2011-11-01T23:18:00.002-04:00

Well I decided to go for a simple design for now. Trying to find blogger templates that don't cost anything is not an easy task. This way it is simple and direct. I might widen the blog some though to make it easier to read.

Tonite I submitted my last assignment for my Ethics class. My research paper: "Is Gay Marriage Ethical?" is due by Wednesday evening at midnight but I finished tweeking it for the instructor so I sent it in. My math class I just need to take the final - tomorrow and then those two classes are done. Thursday starts my next math class "Intermediate Algebra" as long as I get a "C" in my "Introductory Algebra" which I am thinking there is no problem. That class will be over by December 14th....then only.one.more.class. I know I keep saying this over and over but it really is a big deal it has been six years of working towards this degree. More on that one later.

Guess what?! Paul is coming to pick me up tomorrow morning. I am going to spend Wednesday through Sunday or Monday with him. That means LOTS of snuggling time. And it is just what I need right now....and him too he tells me.

Halloween went alright last night. Someone on the block had a HUGE party. There were cars all over the place. My sister found several beer cans in the front yard this morning....and we have proof that someone was in the backyard near the windows to mom's room and actually my basement room also. We found a tail. A furry costume tail. Someone was right there doing who knows what. At least nothing was disturb and everything looks fine.

Well I am going to call it quits for now. I have several posts I want to make. Topics I want to talk about......during the next few days. For now, I am going to go and curl up in my chair in my room and watch something on Netflix. Yesterday I started watching the tv show called "Out of Practice" it is pretty good. There are 22 episodes and I have watched half of them. I will have to pack in the morning.

Need to redecorate

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October is gone & November has arrived. As soon as I get my research ethics paper done I'm redecorating this place :-)

To You

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2011-10-30T21:04:00.000-04:00

Ahh sitting here tonite with Mom she does not like the "devil's night" as it is called. Here in Flint we have many fires set on the night before Halloween. There were three this morning in the early hours. She did not use to be this way. We use to get dressed up in costumes and go tricker treating. We use to give out candy but not anymore. Tomorrow night she will want to have all the lights out and us sitting here watching tv and listening to every sound outside. She use to go down in the basement when I was not living here and watch tv down there with all the lights out. I am not sure when this changed for her. Of course there is the thing about it being "evil" and opposite of God. I think the older she gets the more religious she gets too. I know one time in a psy class we had a discussion about that - several people there had parents who were getting older (Mom will be 85 in November) and everyone was saying the same thing.

Let's see the last time I dressed up Paul and I went to a "Forum Foundation" Halloween Dance. He was a Nun...with rainbow stockings....and I was a gay pimp lol. It was silly but it was fun. The last costume I had when I was younger I was "Super Baby" I dressed up in a diaper and a cape with ribbons in my hair....a bunch of us from highschool went out and boy did we get the candy! lol.

The last two or three Halloweens I have been at Paul's place and the four of us would watch scary movies and pass out candy. I will miss that this year. Paul LOVES scary movies too.

Alright, I am thinking of finding something ....somewhat scary on Netflix to curl up in my chair in my room. Mom is going to go to bed and probably listen for anytiing that moves. Hopefully she will fall asleep soon lol.

Doggy Trick n treating.....

2011-10-30T16:02:00.002-04:00

Saturday Evening......

2011-10-29T20:42:00.001-04:00

Yeah, I have been goofing off. Three post down I said that Paul and I were going to have the evening together. It did not work out the way we thought it was going to go. So I am here and he is there. We are both missing each other but sometimes things just don't work out. So you move on to Plan B right? right. So plan B is he is going to come and get me around Wednesday. It actually works out that we will have more time together in the long run. Meanwhile I am watching things on Netflix and posting my lips lol lol.

Haircut vs Masters Degree

2011-10-28T15:27:00.001-04:00

It's ironic. I'm sitting here thinking if I truly want to go into more debt by oh say $40,000 . . .when right now I can't even afford to go get a haircut lol. (thus why I just mailed a job app for a night time janitorial office cleaning position)

Relax time

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Get to sleep w/ my honey tomorrow

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Don't take it for granted if you and your partner get to sleep together every nite. Though Paul and I are only an hour apart it makes it difficult at times. Him there looking for work - me here finishing up my degree. I miss him especially at night. The plain fact is I sleep better when I am snuggled up to him. That's why tomorrow is going to be great - I'll be sleeping and all cuddling with my sweetheart.

Happy Ghost

2011-10-26T11:23:00.003-04:00

Whip-cream maybe ;-)

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Batman! Robin! (NSFW)

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Health Tip

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Funny poem

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Waiting . . .

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I find myself waiting for many things in my life right now:
1) waiting for the day when Paul and I can be together, living together. Thus being like the picture above.
2) waiting for this term to be over, then two more credits than my degree is done.
3) waiting to make up my mind which masters to go for.
4) waiting to take my number 5 math test right now at the school. (waiting for a computer)
5) waiting for the day when I have a job again.
Waiting waiting waiting . . .I get tired even weary in the waiting.

Carved pumpkins

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Carved pumpkins

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Pumpkin Grrrr

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Glee

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I bet everyone here could use this . . .

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Watching "Halloween"

2011-10-22T23:30:00.000-04:00

.....not the one with Jamie Lee Curtis I believe it is the one before that...the prequel as they say. I guess these "Halloween" movies never get old do they? While sitting here I have been working on my ethics research paper. I think I have it done. Well it is the "first draft" that is due come Sunday at midnight. Then the "real" one gets turned in next week sometime. It was probably not a good idea to be sitting here watching a movie and doing this too lol. Went to a Catholic Mass this afternoon with Paul and one of our friends. The services for a Catholic church are SO different than from a Pentescostal church. I can't help but compare while I am there. It has been a while since I went to a Pentescostal service....it actually made me miss it. The priest today was very interesting as he spoke. I could sit under him I think.

Alright enough for this post.....

Friday's Musings

2011-10-21T12:04:00.000-04:00

Well, I am busy at work on my class assignments. I have to post 2x 5 days per week in both my math and ethics class. I posted in the ethics class and once in the math class because so far I am thee only one to post in the math class.....and since I can not make comments on my own posts I am just going to have to go back and check it out today to see if anyone has posted. Hopefully so I am not sure if I lose that posting point today....hmmmmm.

So now all I have to do in write a "short paper" on terrorism by next Wedneday and also submit my 8-10 page term ethics paper on "Is Gay Marriage Ethical?" which that is due by midnight Sunday evening. I have one page done so far.....but TONS of notes so hopefully thats not going to be a probelm.

Math is going good so far. Hopefully I can stay on track with that.

Took more time to consider different masters programs. I think I am down to two possible choices: either Masters in Social Work or Masters in Professional Counseling. If I were to land a state job working with the Department of Human Service I might just forgo the masters who knows. Anyway I have some deadlines I have to watch out for and start working on the application process.

I found out yesterday that I will have "just enough" to pay for my last class in January. After this term I have only two credits to go.....a computer class..."Power Point" I should have $40 left over after all is said and done :-)

Which brings me to another thing.....come soon...very soon...I am going to be job hunting which is always NICE huh? lol Thus I am really r e a l l y hoping possibly of getting into the DHS job but who knows. I know someone who got hired and she is getting the same degree as me and she is not done yet either.

I am with Paul right now. He came to pick me up yesterday around 2pm. We went out to eat and then came to the house here ......and went to bed for the rest of the evening. I have been up since 8:30am doing work. It is really nice to be with him once again. I think it has been a little over a month since I have actually been here.

Alright I am sure this was interesting reading for anyone who happen to come along...........enough for now.

Tuesday Ramblings

2011-10-18T22:13:00.001-04:00

Tuesday evening and all is well. I am completely finished with my fourth week of assignments for my online classes.....till Wednesday nite at midnite when the next week's assignments are posted. I know I have to have a rough draft of my "Is Gay Marriage Ethical?" research paper done by Sunday. Tomorrow I am starting to work ahead. My other class is math....so far so good. I am actually spending more time on my Ethics class than math. Both classes have tons of discussion questions that have to be answered.

I have been looking at several possible masters programs. Mainly what I get when I look at them is....tired lol. I see all kinds of hoops I would have to jump through. Remember this bachelors I am getting is my SECOND bachelors.....the first one is in "Vocal Music" & "Christian Education" which does me no good at all since I came out and no church in hell would hire me now. This second degree is going to be a :Bachelors of General Studies Majoring in Human Service & Psychology.....whew! I know a mouthful huh? lol It will open some doors but to do better I will need to go on....it was going to be that way no matter what. Honestly, at this point I could enjoy just calling people and reminding them to pay their bills lol.

Watched Lady Gaga on Youtube last night when she was singing to Bill Clinton. I LOVED the fact that she hinted big time to Hillary about running for President. Sorry everyone but I still think she would of made a better President than Obama. The woman can make decisions. Enough said.

My honey got a suprise today. I sent him some flowers with a pumkin. YEAH! he loved it he said. I just love him so much. Looks like he is coming to get me this Thursday. I can't wait. I will still have to do some major assignment working but hell I will be with him and cuddling up to him at night. Sigh.......(thats a good sigh by the way)

I have a nice cozy chair in my room that I do believe I am going to go get in and either read or find something on Netflix to watch......so good nite everyone!

Thoughts from my Waterbed

2011-10-17T07:53:00.001-04:00

. . .yes, it's 7:37 am and I've yet to put one foot on the floor.

*** I've been blog hopping around for about an hour now. I've found some more great ones that I'm going to add to my blog list later on today.

***I've decided to put first in my life who should be first . . .and that's Paul. I love my family but they can go f**k off. I'm done trying to interwine the two. They can love me or leave me.

***it's really still quite dark outside for this time in the morning hmmmmm the last thing I remember last nite (or more like 2o'clock this morning) was taking things into my own hand . . .a really awesome sensation . . .then waking up an hour ago. Maybe it's mid February and there's tons of snow outside!?!?!? Shit, I hope I passed my online classes if that's the case lol.

***see the "Keeping My Content Warning" picture below? I think before successfully posting it on here I might of accidentally forwarded it to someone on my address list lol. If I did then today is REALLY going to be fun! This especially true since it might of went to a sibling :-)

***ok, time to get up and get started on this Monday morning.

Keeping My Content Warning

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